Breathe Life

just a quick note to confirm that i am still here. my job (and it is becoming more of a job than a career) is keeping me busy as i travel all over the united states. i just returned from texas a few days ago. next sunday i leave for idaho, then pennsylvania and north carolina before the end of march.

dear son, please know that you are on my mind and in my heart always. i am most excited that hayes (shall we call him "papa"?) and i will drive to miami beach this wednesday to meet 2 dads and their son. each day brings us closer together. you will be in my arms when the time is right. i am experiencing fear greater than i have ever known. it is only succeeded by by the anticipation and excitement of our eventual union. until then, know you are loved and missed deeply!

Dad

i have found some wonderful websites, joined various newsgroups and message boards and made contacts with other gay parents. there is plenty of information and support on and for this process. currently, it looks like international adoption thru russia or the ukraine is our best option. more to come...

i just wanted to share with everyone my deep appreciation for the outpouring of love and support during this difficult time. i love you all.

as some or most of you know by now, i buried my little brother last week. my heart hurts...there are no words. i appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers and am thankful i can find blessings in the shadows. i repeat the phrase in my mind "one day at a time" and wonder why it seems to work for me but couldn't for my brother or mother.